to dream or not to dream

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In a meditation today, I was ‘told’ something about dreams and desires which I would like to share. My Heart completely gets it. The logical mind is struggling to put it in words. I hope what I write will make sense.

We all have dreams. We all have desires. We are always in a quest to find ways to fulfill our dreams and desires – small or BIG. We plan things in our life so that we can bring our dreams and desires about.

We pray, we visualise, we say affirmations out loud, we do ‘manifestation meditations’, we do vision boards, we stick post-it notes on every available space in our house (and workplace too! Perhaps the only place left is our family members’ faces – i know, a bit of exaggeration), we hang ourselves upside down (maybe not), we scream, we shout, we cry, we try to feel in our bones skin muscles how it feels when our dreams come true, we try to stay positive, we falter, we doubt, we beat ourselves for wavering, we gather ourselves, we become desperate, we try to surrender to Higher Power (if we believe in one – if not, we may try to believe in a Greater Force just to fulfill our desire to eat an ice-cream, haha), we stay the course!

In short (really? after so many words!) we do whichever trick our minds can think of so that our desires can be fulfilled, our dreams can come true.

Now, let’s pause for a second and step away from all or some of the above mentioned mental and physical activities that we put ourselves through. And think ‘What if the very reason I conceived a particular desire or dream is because the Universe knows I am capable of bringing this about!?! And no matter what I do or not do, the dream WILL BE realised

Let’s take it a bit deeper and ask ourselves:

  • What if the only reason I am having this desire is because the fruition of it is already waiting for me up ahead?
  • What if my Higher Self gave me a thought for a particular desire, however BIG or small, which is in alignment with my Higher Purpose and It (my Higher Self) has not only devised a Plan for me to get there, but also already formulated a Guaranteed Success?
  • What if the realisation and success of a dream was also ‘installed’ (for the lack of a better word) in our own personal World/Life/Universe/Consciousness at the exact moment of it’s conception?
  • What if I got a desire because my Future Self is already basking in the fulfilment of it?
Hound Tor, Dartmoor

Hound Tor, Dartmoor

The analogy that I’d like to use is I like travelling. I want to go and see the Tors in Dartmoor in west country Devon (one of my favourite places btw). Tors must come into my awareness first for me to like them and have a wish to go see them. Most importantly, they HAVE TO already exist in the first place to come into my awareness.

So the object (or subject?) of the desire is already present at the time of having a desire, if it makes sense!

The only thing that remains then for me is deciding when and how do I want to go, and which route I want to take. From the moment of the inception of the desire, I lead myself toward it.

I reckon, and this is indeed a supposition, call it ‘thinking out loud’, our bigger radical dreams of a grander nature are somewhat similar to our desires like in the analogy above.

My ‘get’ from the meditation is that a dream in it’s manifested state already exists in a ‘future’ timeline. And the dream is brought into our awareness. We like it and decide to walk the timeline.

Our Higher Self, our All Knowing Eternal Soul already sees the dream, which starts in the non-physical, manifested in the physical plane. It knows we are indeed going to make it. And the reason why It planted a Seed of a dream in our minds in the first place is because It has already seen the Fruit grow. And from the moment of that seeding, It has already started us on our journey towards it. Again if we say yes to it.

Chances are we will say yes because our Higher Self knows what’s best for us (provided we step out of our ego mind)!

However, because we so identify ourselves with this third dimensional physical reality, unless we see a tangible evidence within the time frame we have set for it to occur, we doubt if we will ever make it. We begin to worry if we hit a stumbling block. We wonder if the path we have taken is indeed the correct one. We are so attached to the outcome and with the ego mind’s control of how it should be and how it should look like, we are for most part focussed on the destination and forget to enjoy the journey. 

But if we start taking this new perspective onboard that the very reason a desire or a dream takes a form in our awareness is because it’s actualisation has taken a form too in ‘future’ space and time, then our journey would be much easier, much more joyful, much more relaxed and our eyes wouldn’t always be on the destination. We would start appreciating the journey.

My car may break down whilst travelling to the Tors. But I will get it repaired and continue my journey since I know regardless of what happens on my journey, the object of my desire is already there and I will make it in due course.

We may be aware of some of the incidents that happen in our life, some actions we take, people we meet that contributes toward our dream. Some seemingly adverse conditions – we would wish them away. However, those are part of the Plan too. Nothing is working against us. In fact, everything is helping us evolve and bringing us closer to our realised dream(s).

All the things that we do or not do. All the affirmations we say or not say, all the visualisations we do or not do, all the vision boards we make or not – it doesn’t matter. Doing all these will get us to our destination. Not doing them will also get us there. I suppose the only ingredient required is we believe we WILL realise it and that everything that is happening (and that which is seemingly not happening) is taking us closer to our desired place.

I must admit I too have worried and doubted the actualisation of a ‘crazy’ dream that I am carrying within since few years. But this morning’s epiphany has a startling effect on me. In fact I am even grateful that the dream hasn’t materialised as yet because during this ‘waiting’ period, I have gotten and will get (until it’s time for it to ripen) abundance of opportunities to refine my smaller desires within the larger context of my main dream; I get ample of chances to redefine my priorities whilst I am on my way towards my destination.

And lastly, I perhaps wouldn’t have had this ‘weird perspective’ had my dream already manifested. I haven’t read any book on the subject but I would like to believe that there’s some Truth in what was revealed to me.

Friends, I’d love to hear what is your view on these thoughts that I have thrown out in open! I am well aware that my Truth may or may not be yours; nevertheless it would be great to hear different perspectives.

Till then keep dreamin’ and believing that the nitty-gritty will be taken care of (or already has been 😉 )

Update – 15.8.15 – The more I think about this ‘epiphany’ I had, the more it seems there’s Truth in it. At the very moment of the inception of a desire or dream in us by our Higher Self, a ‘point of success’ is also created so that we can move towards it. Without point B, how would we know where we have to go from point A? We have the choice of taking different routes from point A and depending on our choice, it will take however long (or quick) it takes. But point B HAS TO exist before we set out on our journey and to reach there our Higher Self gives us instruction on an on-going basis as part of the plan – provided we are NOT too stuck with our ego mind to listen to and/or identify the instructions!

toys

hello friends, inner child here🚼

every now and then you are guided by the guys upstairs (well, he means stumble upon) (nah-nah-na-nana, don’t listen to the big boy – he will try to show his maturity by commenting in italics – i say to him “argo” – to understand what it means you need to watch the movie “argo” 😜) and you find some lovely toys 🎾⚽🏀 to play with that brings more fun in your life. the inner child has “found” some amazing toys in his kindergarten and would like to share them here:

  1. clean your soiled boots with your daddy (higher self meditation self clearing system) found this at http://www.ascensionhelp.com/higher-self-meditation.php; cameron day – what an amazing guy. don’t know him personally but after listening and reading to what he has produced, he gets a candy 🍭 from me – “only one though, i want the rest for myself” inner child is yelling

  2. free activations and meditations and what not at https://judysatori.com/free/ – what a blessing this beautiful lady judy satori is! she “channels” spirit and speaks in light language. the grownup boy’s logical brain couldn’t brush this one aside as hogwash in spite of what she “speaks” sounds funny, and you know what, inner child gets goosebumps, buzzing, tingling in crown chakra and pictures of chocolates 🍬 whilst listening to her audios. inner child sends her lots and lots of hugs and love 💖 and no, light language doesn’t mean she sits beside a lamp and keep turning the lights on and off while speaking!!

  3. free violet flame invocation at a lovely lady called troika’s site http://ascension-stgermain.com/violetflame-article.html – there’s also a mp3 available to download for free – she was born “awake” (inner child wonders if she ever sleeps..heehee). last year inner child purchased a box full of toys from her which has something to do with making the wheels of your cycle to move faster 🚲 (what!!!!) (he means activating your chakras to vibrate at a higher 5D frequency.😎) and also one that allows you to switch on the light bulb in your brain 💡 (you must be joking!!!) (read that as activating your pineal gland 😭), one that gives you more chocolates, ice creams and brownies 🍦🍫🍰 (and you thought it must be fun living with this kid!! he means violet flame transmission for abundance) 💷💷💷 amongst many things. inner child sends her loads and loads of gratitude and yes, some herbs so she can rest and sleep a little while 💤

  4. this next toy comes courtesy a famous man called tom kenyon who sets you right by talking to you 🔊 (sound healer!) head off here http://tomkenyon.com/listening to pluck from the tree (download!!) as many fruits as you like. inner child enjoys “the elevatron” “hatharion stream of light” and “the inner sun sound meditation” in particular which helps him stay sane in this game called ass-ension (oops sorry he means ascension! lord help me!!)

  5. last but never the least, that which comes from the horse’s mouth 🎠- watching fireworks 🎆 (receiving embedded energies) and the ‘set you right’ lightsaber 🔦(healing rays!!) like pumpkin ray, rainbow ray, oceanic ray (these are actual names btw; he didn’t make them up – thank god!!) in jack’s initial messages at http://jeanrockefeller.com/blog/

  6. hang on, one more. musical rapture. no, seriously. here’s what it says at http://www.eraofpeace.org/musical-rapture-mp3

The frequency of this Celestial Music communicates with the Divine Intelligence of the body at a cellular level raising the consciousness of each cell. As the music soothes and comforts the cells, the body’s natural ability to heal itself is enhanced.”

try the toys yourself if you like and yes, don’t listen to the big boy – he’s lost it – unless he writes “it is actually fun and amazing living with this kid” which he did, so he too gets kisses  😘😘😘

let your inner child play and have fun 👬👭

how’s it going, mate? 2/2

Go here to get an idea of what I’m rambling about.


7) An intense desire to spend time in Nature. And a deep reverence for Mother Nature and Mother Earth for all that She is providing and a deeper sense of gratitude and connection.

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I have always lived in a city. But, now, I want to have a dwelling somewhere in countryside amidst Nature (Dartmoor, Italian Dolomite, Himalayas anyone?) where I’m in direct contact with Earth (think barefoot walking), maybe grow my own vegetables and spend as much time outdoors as possible and deepen my connection with Nature Spirits, Elementals, Animals and Birds.

8) We may find that our likes and preferences are changing. What used to tickle our fancy before, no longer ‘moves’ us!

For eg. you may start dreading the idea of going for shopping whereas before you would have jumped in excitement at the mention of the word.

I’m a movie buff! However, the movies (and the genre) that used to get me excited before doesn’t even grab my attention now! That’s just one example.

We are moving away from hedonism and what we are looking for is more enjoyable, fulfilling experience even if that means staying home and not doing anything!

That doesn’t mean we will stop buying stuff we like, but it will NOT be like “oh, I’m getting bored, let me check what’s on the high street and buy myself whatever!”

9) Most likely it won’t be ‘not doing anything’ unlike mentioned above because we may find new talents and skills in ourselves.

Actually, they are not new, but the ones that we had had suppressed (and we are not talking just this lifetime!) These talents and skills will start coming ‘online’ and may take us by surprise.

Writing for this blog is a case in point for me.

And at the same time, skills that never were ours, but we took them because we were asked to do so by our parents or teachers or we took them because of peer pressure or just to comply with societal standards or just because we wanted to pay our bills, will fall by the wayside.

And tied to this is a possibility of giving up our jobs. I’m not saying everyone who does a job do so out of compulsion and that they don’t enjoy their jobs and will give them up.

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No, but, if I dare say, most of us are actually NOT doing what WE really would LOVE and WANT to do. We are currently doing jobs that we and, more importantly, others THINK we SHOULD be doing.

This next phase in human evolution is all about Heart; about what WE WANT to do at our soul level; about doing stuff that brings us JOY; about bringing our CREATIVE side out (remember Divine Feminine is all about Creation and Creativity); about doing what we LOVE. The emphasis being on “our personal likes and heartfelt desires”

I began to see the meaninglessness in my IT job and left it (shocking myself and everyone around me!!) in search for a more enriching experiences in Life. It has been far from easy, but I don’t regret taking the step. Having a supportive partner always helps. Thank you she-kid! (Psst..hope she will read this and treat me to a cake or a South Indian dish! 😜)

10) We may find it difficult to “maintain” some relationships, especially those where there’s no ‘heart and soul’ involved; that are superficial; where there’s no respect; where our values, feelings, ideas are not honoured; where there’s imbalance of masculinity and femininity (and this doesn’t apply only to males – even females carry masculine energy); where there’s too much of control and there’s very little, if any, breathing space. I reckon you got the idea.

We may feel like walking away from such associations or we may feel like we need to voice our discomfort and make it known. It doesn’t mean we feel we are superior or better than others or that we are being self-centered or that we don’t love them. 

But it probably means we are being given an opportunity to love and value ourselves more, come back in our Power, give ourselves a voice, and start respecting ourselves and maintain a healthy boundary. It’s about time we don’t let people use us as a doormat.

And most times, it’s us who have been playing victims. So, no, sorry, we cannot blame anyone for treating us as such! No??? Really??? Oh dear!!!

ec3c1308f5d32157741621c5eab6fc5fMy wife and I really went through a very challenging period in our relationship. We both had, on many occasions, thought of walking out. The energies were such that it was bringing all sorts of repressed emotions out. We went through thick and thin of it. It does feel a bit settled now though. Fingers crossed.

At the risk of sounding egotist, looking back, now it seems to us that we were also being ‘made’ to clear a bit of the collective because at the time, it did feel some emotions (energies) weren’t us! 

11) Aversion to Love – this is a kicker!

I hear you say “Are you serious? On the one hand you’re saying more Love is coming to the planet, but on the other, you’re saying this! You haven’t gone looney, have you?” No, I haven’t! Hear me out, please!

Most of us must have lived many previous lives. And we might have had our Trust broken in our relationships whenever we seeked Love or whenever our needs were not met.

Also, a bigger picture could be: the purpose for each of these lives has been, I reckon, union back with our Source. But in all the previous lifetimes, we have not had been successful (maybe it wasn’t our time or the energies weren’t favourable – I don’t know)

So, we are carrying within us the energy of betrayal – of having had been betrayed by fellow humans, but also by Source Him\Herself. In our childish naivety, we perhaps assumed that the Creator doesn’t ‘care’ about us (for a lack of a better word) and we are literally peed off with Him\Her.

So, this time around the Love vibrations are uprooting this stuck energy of betrayal from our Being and as it leaves, it gives us this sense of “yeah right! I have heard this rhetoric and I’m not interested.” In actuality, these energies are surfacing to be released giving us the illusion as if we really aren’t interested in this Love stuff.

But the Truth is we INDEED wish to merge with our Source.

I know this may sound silly. But this is what my realisation is after having travelled to the depths of my Being. You may not be annoyed with Him/Her at all.


Dear friends,  this is not by any means an exhaustive list. Only what I felt I needed to put out here. I just want to reiterate that all these things may not happen to everyone and even if someone goes through some similar experiences, it doesn’t necessarily happen all at the same time. Our Higher Self and Source knows how much we can handle at a given time and will bring things up for us in layers.

“When Life gives you Onions, peel the layers”  TWDY

Here’s hoping that these posts will help someone out there. I’d love to hear what your experiences are\have been. Love to all.

how’s it going, mate? 1/2

 1506478_10152930430623623_2773564196774137518_nMy yesterday’s status update on how I’m sensing the energies to be right now, also made me think to write on what can we expect from this Ascension process because some may not necessarily feel the same way. I’m not a psychic or any expert. You might want to check this just in case! What I’m sharing is how it has played out for me up until now. Maybe it will help someone.

Remember we are all different. Even though the underlying purpose is for us to get into a space of more (permanent) unconditional Love, the route and time each of us will take will be varying in some degrees. Like i said, you may be feeling exactly the opposite to what I’m feeling. Or you may NOT even feel a thing. And that’s OK. When the time is right for YOU and when YOU are ready, your awakening process will kick in. And it may not even be in your soul plan to awake this lifetime around. Again, it’s perfect!

You may think this is all hogwash. But let me tell you it’s NOT. Well, at least NOT for me. What they say? You know that saying…aah…The proof of the pudding is in the eating. Yep, that’s it!

Right! So what kind of “symptoms” and what could the possible reasons be: 

1) There may be a deeper sense of sadness and sorrow without any reason. We may not see the reason and may judge ourselves as being depressed. I reckon there’s a reason for this and it may be our longing to be united with our Source, which we have been carrying lifetime after lifetime after staying separated from Him\Her, and is particularly intense right now – thanks to the Shift!

This sense of sadness may be a sign from our Higher Self who wants our attention and wants us to embark upon our journey to be One with Source – back to our Home!

The feeling of sorrow manifested for me as a kind of sick feeling of being on this planet. I had days when I literally wanted to leave everything behind and go away and get lost in some forest or unknown land!! And no, I’m not writing this from Amazon or Antarctica in case you were wondering. I doubt they have a WiFi – wait, let me check: Oi Tarzan, mate….

2) Crying and being angry, frustrated, irritated for some inexplicable reasons.

© Jose Antonio Tovar

© Jose Antonio Tovar

And no, my male friends, crying isn’t a sign of weakness unlike we have been programmed to believe. So yes, you can cry, you are allowed to, it IS your birthright – perhaps that’s the first thing you would’ve done at your birth anyway 😉

Now, the reason for this random bursts of ‘unsocial’ emotions could be the release of old, ancient memories of physical, emotional, mental and spiritual injury and trauma we may have had endured however those might have had manifested in our previous lives and current one.

Because of the amnesia we are in, we remember neither the past lives nor the painful incidents. As the Light that is coming in releases these stuck energies, we may feel certain emotions and we think we are going bonkers or insane. Well, may not necessarily be so!

There were days (and still are, but now, few and far between) when I used to burst into tears and crying my guts out (is there such saying?!) And I always used to feel better afterwards. I find it quite refreshing to be honest. I may even start a Crying Club – there are way too many Laughter Clubs around!!!

3) A feeling of lethargy and downright laziness. A sense of not wanting to do anything at all. Sometimes we may want to sleep, sleep and sleep.

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We are told our cellular structure is changing from carbon-based to crystalline-based in order for us to embody more Light and ready us for our transition into higher dimensions. (a) (b)

Remember, we are ascending this time by staying in our bodies.(c) And because in our known history, we haven’t had experienced such vibrations before (whilst still being alive), these frequencies are new for our body and might be the cause of tiredness.

It could also be because we are expending so much energy by releasing what needs to go (consciously in our wakeful moments and perhaps subconsciously in our sleep state)

And some of us may also be clearing and purging for the collective (Thank you God!!) which adds an extra layer of pressure – which always helps….NOT!

But the good news is that it may become slightly easier for those who would be “waking up” sooner because they will not have as much muck to clean!

4) Weird dreams. Dreams have taken a whole new form for me especially since last few years. Dream activity has gone through the roof. Another reason for exhaustion!

I have dreamt some very delicious, beautiful dreams, but also, nightmares like (but not limited to) getting in some serious confrontation with near and dear ones. Again, this might be the subconscious (unconscious?) being cleared of the hurts and injuries we carry.

5) Body wanting to eat more healthy. We may find ourselves looking and checking health and nutrition related websites. I remember I stumbled upon few websites which were talking about what we should be eating and why. I can’t remember taking a conscious decision that I want to change my eating habits. Nevertheless my Higher Self had better plans for me. And so here I was, checking information on nutrition, fitness, organic food and the likes.

178588_10151113911458623_1283817035_oMy wife and I started eating organic food as much as we possibly can. Also, we were finding it difficult to consume heavy (Indian) meals that we were used to eating since childhood. So, in essence, we are becoming lighter, not only vibrationally, but physically too. It’s like ‘like attracts like’ – Light attracts light.

Foods that are dense makes it a wee bit more challenging for us to assimilate Light. Our body has an intelligence of it’s own. It’s not merely a lump of flesh, bones and muscles! It knows what’s best for itself. And that very intelligence ‘puts’ us on a healthier path!

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© wonderferret

6) Another bodily sign is ‘more than usual’ (if there’s any such thing as usual when it comes to lack of health!) bouts of headaches, digestive disorders, backaches, muscular pain which have been common for me since couple of years. I’ve never had known what headache is in my life!

It’s not to say physical discomforts will be there 24/7. They may come and go along with the undulating energy. There are many websites that speak of the Ascension symptoms – some call it Ascensionitis! It might be a good idea to check and see if there’s anything on there that matches the way you feel. 

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(a) http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/ciencia/ciencia_cambio14.htm

(b) http://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/07/11/the-transformation-from-carbon-base-to-crystalline-body-part-1/

(c) http://goldenageofgaia.com/into-the-golden-age-of-gaia/the-golden-age-of-gaia/what-makes-this-ascension-new-special-and-important-part-12-2/