Look here first to see why do we want to get naked.
Right! So, now that we have been authentic with our own self and we have decided to meditate, what should we do?
For me, meditation was NOT some choice, but more of a compulsion. Back then I was going through a lot of fear, rage, anger, irritation, lust, sadness, sorrow and the lot. If there ever was a fearful miserable sod, it had to be me! So I didn’t have the ‘luxury’ to sit, meditate and connect with angels and fairies (I didn’t even know they existed, well, consciously didn’t know anyway)
So then, I put into practice what my teacher had taught: “sit with the what-is”. And believe me, since last 15 years, I have ‘sat’ so much that my bums cry just at the thought of it. Sorry for being graphic!
It is a bit different to mindfulness. Mindfulness, I reckon, is being in the witness state and observing the thoughts when we meditate and bring ourselves back to being a witness if distracted, right? However, with the practice that I learnt, we actually let our emotions and feelings rise to the surface and experience it in as much intensity as is possible for us in the moment.
Let me explain. As we sit to meditate, we need to take an honest stock of what’s in there and how we are feeling in the moment. There must be at least one thing (most likely a person) in our current life period that’s pushing our buttons, that’s bugging us (unless we are living in Himalayas all alone. Well, even then, there will always be one mountain goat to ruffle our feathers! Bugger.)
Having said that, the most important thing to bear in mind is those who are pushing our buttons are NOT to be blamed. It’s NOT them who trigger something in us but they are only holding a mirror for us to see what we need to acknowledge, accept, heal and love within us; those qualities of ours we find it hard to accept and integrate.
“So, I can’t blame anyone?” No! “Seriously?” Yes. “Not even for like half a minute?” No. “Oh, bummer! I better keep that index finger in check then?!” Absolutely.
Fun fact: hence the meditation mudra (posture) of touching the index finger to our thumb.
Most often than not, as we sit, we will NOT have to go in search of a person, event or incident (let’s call any of this an entity) that’s driving us bonkers. It will automatically reveal itself. Just a thought of that entity is enough for us to start feeling the feeling(s)(fear, anger, hatred, resentment etc etc.)
So whatever feeling arises, we breathe into it. We don’t let it go. We hold it close, gently but firmly. We become acutely aware of it. We don’t judge or criticise or condemn or justify it. We experience it and let the intensity increase without budging. We give it space to open itself up and express itself.
As we do this, we might feel some sort of discomfort and sensations in our body. Maybe we are getting short of breath or we might start having pain somewhere in our body. In whatever form it gets represented, whatever it is, we stay with it.
We let the shortness of breath continue. We let the pain increase to such a degree that
WE BECOME THAT FEELING, THAT PAIN! WE BECOME ONE WITH THAT FEELING. So in essence, now we ARE NOT experiencing the feeling but we ARE that feeling. We don’t pay as much attention to thoughts now as to the feelings and sensations.
Let’s say we are working on fear, fear of losing our job for eg. So we let the fear rise. The thought of losing the job is real and so the fear (even though an illusion) is real for us in that moment. So instead of rationalising it or trying to be philosophical about it or trying to take our focus off it by shouting positive affirmations from the rooftops, we go right into the fear and confront it head-on! We face it.
“let the tiger eat you completely” Shri Bhagavan
And as we go deeper in this, we might start getting more fear about other things. Fear of rejection. Fear of failure. Fear of owning our power. Fear of voicing our opinion. Fear of losing someone. Fear of death even! Do not stop it, let it continue. ‘The more the merrier’ if we really crave for freedom!
The thing to understand is fear is fear. The content (subject of the fear in our case) of the energy packet (the feeling) that we are sitting with may be different. But the common denominator is the same in all of them. Replace Fear A with Fear B and you still have Fear. So it’s not A or B that is an issue.
We need to bear in mind that the content is not important and our focus should be on the energy packet when we sit with it.
Another example: let’s say, we are feeling jealous of our friend or colleague (we can all relate to this, can’t we? ;)) So we start with that subject (person X) and dive deeper into the ocean of jealousy (oh, how very wonderful!! Not!!) And when we have stayed enough time with “being jealous of person X”, we will see, it will automatically bring into our awareness other people whom we feel jealous of.
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