i know nothing

Energies are building up as Equinox is almost here. They say that Equinoxes and Solstices are major portals for deep transformation. And I can only agree with that. And with new energies come new perspectives, new ways of thinking, new ways of doing things and new wisdom and realisations.

One such realisation dawned onto me as I went through a spiritual experience today that literally made me laugh and laugh:

“There’s joy and relief in knowing that you don’t know anything”

This might sound absurd. But let’s think about it. How much of the knowledge that we have about ourselves in our life is through our direct experience. And when I say ourselves I don’t mean our human selves and knowing our personalities. It’s a deeper knowledge that is being referred here.

How much do we know of ourselves as a soul and a spiritual being? How much of a direct experience do we have, of ourselves, as something bigger than this human body? And how much of the knowledge is our OWN through our own personal experience?

I see a common phrase being spoken by many in the New Age spiritual movement that goes something like this “we are not human beings living a spiritual life, but spiritual beings having a human experience”

Yes, I agree and I’d like to imagine myself as such. Yes, I do see myself as spiritual. Yes, because of the transformation that I have gone through and going through, I don’t relate to many of the things that I, as a human, used to say, do or like. So there must be more to it than meets the eye.

However, I haven’t reached that knowing myself that I’m an expansive ball of energy, yet. It is NOT my experience and I can’t (and don’t want to) fake it by chanting “I am a spiritual being having a human experience!!!” I want that “there must be more” to become “there is more” 

So the question is is this our own personal experience? Or is it, like many other beliefs and paradigms, passed down from generations or handed to us by an author or spiritual teacher or a friend or whoever?

We read or hear something that sounds good, that we deem as wise words and that we resonate with. And we start utilising that which we have read or heard in our daily lives. We begin to incorporate the knowledge and begin thinking of us as higher spiritual beings.

But “thinking” is not “experiencing”, is it? Experience is something beyond the thoughts.

I am not saying that we shouldn’t think of us as higher beings. I am not saying that wisdom from others doesn’t help us. It has helped me. Though I haven’t read many books in my life so far, I have heed the teachings and words of my spiritual teacher and others.

However, I do say that those words and teachings were only pointers. They weren’t my Truth. And I also say that unless we come to a certain higher conclusion about ourselves via our own “epiphany“, that thinking that we do shouldn’t be taken as our Truth. In a way, we “borrowed” that knowledge from a book or a person, so to speak!

Time to give it back to the “owner” and unlearn what we have learnt. And know that we know nothing!!

And yes, don’t take my word for it. Let it be your Truth 😉